My Super Tiny Teeny-Weeny Ex - 10

I started reading the thirty-first chapter of Proverbs every morning, focusing on what the woman described there did for her family. She did all kinds of stuff; work being one of them. She weaved tapestries and went to the market place to sell them, was accountable with her money and made her husband proud of her. It made me wonder if Sydney was or had ever been proud of me. He had never said as much, but now that I thought about it, I wasn’t sure if I’d given him a reason to be. I couldn’t think of any special accomplishment I’d achieved that would make him look me in the eyes and say ‘I’m so proud of you, Kareese.’ Sometimes people say it after they watch a woman go through labor, but I think Sydney had been too overwhelmed and nervous about the whole thing to have even thought that when we had Casey, and too suspicious with the whole ‘I don’t believe that’s my baby’ ordeal when we had Carlos. I had yet to finish my degree and graduate, which could have been a moment for him to have said if I had. I hadn’t even dropped my baby weight and gotten my figure back, but on the contrary, I’d blown up like a balloon, weighing more now than I did when I was full-term pregnant.

I couldn’t judge Sydney; I could do better. The next time we spooned, I offered him an apology about being too demanding and critical, and not fully recognizing or appreciating how much he did for our family.

With a new mentality I found fewer reasons to complain, and focused on more things to offer praise. And as far as our money situation, at least the ends did meet even if it wasn’t until the middle of the month sometimes, or thirty days after the date, but they did eventually meet.  After four years though, I was ready to stop living from paycheck to paycheck and start living in abundance. It didn’t even have to be abundance, but more than what we were doing. So I tried to do more since Sydney wasn’t going to do it.

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